It’s dark outside, just the light from the half moon overhead. I walk through the streets of the new fallen snow; mine the only footsteps, for it is late. Lights illuminate through the windows of the houses around me, with their signs of the season all aglow. Multicolored lights against the green trees, ornaments shining brightly through the still boughs.  Garland and popcorn strings on the branches with the tinsel tossed or gently placed upon the branches. Icicle lights dangle crazy from the roofs, swaying in the winds that have started to blow.

All around the sounds and sights of the season can be seen, as I slowly walk along the road.

I know what is in those houses. It was as mine was many years ago.  The houses of children, where anticipation grows over every passing hour.  Presents in their hiding spots waiting to be placed reverently beneath the tree. Stocking hanging by the fireplace, filled to capacity with small offerings to the good girls and boys that live there.

The church bells are ringing softly now and caroling can be heard from afar, carried on the wind to announce another joyous season. I turn around and look back on the road that I have traveled and am not surprised to see only one set of footsteps…mine. Was it always like this?  You are no longer here to send wishes for the season and happiness for the New Year. You can no longer spread joy, laughter and your love. You can not be a part of the holiday spirit I see, to feel the snow and to get all bundled up against the weather you took such delight in. You will also never again feel the loneliness and despair that was once your companion. And the pain of the illness that ravaged your body

On this holiday season I will think about the gifts you gave to me. Your shoulder, your strength, your criticism, and the greatest gift your love. I hold this in my heart today and for all times. I wish on this day and everyday I could have you see what I see, feel as I feel. We had precious times and maybe as I walk by myself, with the thoughts of you, I don’t feel quite so alone.